Today marks the four year anniversary of my niece's passing. It has been a very emotional day for me. Tears have been shed. I have yelled at my kids in impatience. I have cried because I yelled at my kids. I have sat at my desk, put my face in my hands and just wept to the Lord asking for forgiveness and help for this day. I'm feeling a bit on edge.... yet also finding that I'm hording too. Hording my kids, hording the memories of all the little things they do that make them little. Like holding their little teddy bears hands and making them walk down the stairs as if they were little buddies. Or twirling around in a fresh dress. Or even the often annoying noises they produce just to be silly.
My niece was a few weeks old, but her life was not in vain. Far from it. It can seem that way sometimes. It can prompt me to question why God chose to give her to our family at all if it wasn't to enjoy her.... but. But. Her life has impacted hundreds of people. And I dare say, one day it will be thousands and thousands. There is a ripple effect happening here. Those who knew her, primarily her parents who are above and beyond in my book, can all testify to the wonderful love of God because they been found clinging to him through grief. Oh the grief has caused many to turn to Jesus. To see Him. To know Him. In turn, they testify to others and they to others. It's the ripple effect. A small and short life is the drop that starts us all to turn to Christ and to bound to Him.
So today I'm thankful for A.
Thanksgiving: Linger List
Free online workout videos, Halloween candy, forgiveness from my Pipsqeak, jokes from my Monkey, new meatloaf recipe, bread machine, Advil, and hot tea.
Total number of listed items as of today (by far not complete) ::::16
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